Trust Issues

There are things I know that are certain, like the changing seasons.  I know there are big changes for me in the future and yet there is an uncertainty.

Lately me my instincts have let me down. Everything is the opposite of what I think.  For example: people I thought I knew have shown me a side of them I never would have guessed they had.  This makes me hard to trust people and I know it's my hang-up.  Trusting people is something I want to  change in my life.  I just do not know how to go about it.

Have you ever experienced the "lack of trust" in the people you already know or getting to know?  What steps did you take to over-come this issue? Were you successful or still struggling. Are there any books you recommend? The answers I shall seek!

Welcome To New Toy

Welcome to New Toy.  A personal blog/journal of Jeanine Marie.  I have other blogs but I didn't have one where I could just write about life's ups and downs.

Things change regardless if you are ready for the changes.  This past weekend I lost someone who I considered my brother.  He use to be the life of the party and I discovered a lot of firsts with him.  For example, going to my first rock concert was with him.

He had everything (in my eyes) that a guy could want: Good health, good friends, wealth and he traveled.

Little by little his life started to turn dark until all the light faded away.

It seems everyone but I knew the end was near.  I kept hoping he could pull his way out but sadly it never happened.

There have been other changes that have impacted me deeply. Moving from the west coast to the east coast was a HUGE change. Talk about culture shock.

Getting older is something I have mixed feelings about. I know you can't stop time but at least you can try to put it on hold.

New Toy is about changes and you are welcome to get on the ride.